[ undisclosed desires ]

so what's next?

2011-04-23T19:56:00.004+07:00

a week ago i brought up a topic to someone about what would i do with my life next? you know that thought when you were in elementary, you'd be thinking that 'okay.. next i'll be going to middle school, then high school, then university, then work.'

while i was in university, i could NOT wait till i'm done with being a student pursuing a title of Bachelor of Communication and Media Management. all i wanted to do was get a job and work. now that im into the workforce, i kinda lost myself a little. i have no idea what to plan next for my life. my state of mind is currently enjoying what's in front of me. as if i have no other dreams. then i got a little wake up call..that if i dont start planning what i want to do next, my life would be just as flat...

well i guess the simplest thing to start planning it is to write down lists of what to do before 25.. that might take me a while to think too.. lol

double two and i like you.

2011-03-02T21:52:00.002+07:00

i'd like to start off by saying happy birthday to myself.. not quite sure whether anyone actually says happy birthday to their own self but why not? so last friday the 25th, i turned 22. a lot much simpler and not what i expected my birthday to be. but oh well, i am still given the opportunity to see the light of another day, to breath oxygen freely and to live up to my expectations.

these few days had been quite frustrating, un-organised schedules which leads to working at a different side of Jakarta and coming home late only to find mom would be yelling at me because i havent done chores at home. why are maids so hard to employ these days?

several things knocked some sense into me and ive become a much more sensitive person to a certain extent. i tried not to get ticked off easily but once you've had enough, you've had enough right? everybody needs a break to catch up with the phase again.

on a lighter note, what i've been doing at work has opened up my eyes even larger than it is now to see the "frontliners" of this company working their asses off to reach this company's target. i am proud of them and i believe that they should get an increase in their salary and better benefits than any of us at the national office.

that was quite a ramble :p

the unexpected awaits

2011-02-20T12:03:00.002+07:00

it has been a little over a year since i last poured out my emotions into writing. looking back through the old-kept posts knocked my senses that i wasn't such a happy person. all i read was about complaining about this and that. but those posts are fond memory of how i managed to still making it alive. breathing. right this second.

a year has passed, 2010 was eventful. i lost a good friend forever due to a nasty car-truck accident; i completed my Bachelor Degree in Communication and Media Management in Adelaide; and i also lost someone very close to heart: my grandmother. griefs accompanied me and my family to end the year of 2010 but slowly we are keeping up with the pace just like how we lived our lives when she was still here with us. i was just glad she had the chance to see me graduate from university :') you are forever missed.

as time unfolds itself without anyone instructs to do so, i find little sparks and lights shines for me not long after 2011 begins. the answers to some of my prayers. everything i asked for, are slowly getting on to my hands. luck.destiny.faith you name it.
am very much grateful for what God prepares for me and i know more things awaits as i progress my life.

and as for now,
i am destined to be yours.

one thing i dislike..

2009-12-06T21:50:00.000+07:00

superficial bitches.. im honestly not one of them yet they are within my surroundings.

all that i have..

2009-11-25T16:52:00.002+07:00

lately i've noticed that im one of the luckiest people alive..im starting to take a look at things more closely and deeply. im grateful for everything that i was given from my parents.. the chance to study overseas, the monthly allowance, a really nice apartment just across the mall, living in a very strategic city, convenient and simply having the people that i meet who have shaped me into who i am today.. whether they're bad or good.. only I can judge and decide who to be friends with.. im very fortunate to have the opportunity to be able to enjoy things, travel to different places, eat good food and i know not many have the very same opportunity as i do.. and i need to be constantly reminded about this..

its hard to live without parents who can guide me into the good all the way.. hidup gw sekarang memang masih menyimpang kanan-kiri karena gw masih dalam proses belajar dan mengerti.. tapi satu hal yang pasti, i wont let myself fall into the darkest pithole. gw masih punya self-control and im glad i can take a pretty good care of it.. i would consider living away from the parents as a life exam on being independence and knowing my true self..

i still have a long way to go in this life and i want to make the most of it purely because i was grateful enough to have the chance to live.

owl city

2009-11-07T09:22:00.002+07:00

i am currently obssessed with Owl City.. discovered them a few weeks back and fell in love..

i can say im in a much better shape now. and by shape i dont mean body shape.. despite drowning and drenched in the heavy duty assignments, i still try to have fun. this semester is coming to an end and i must say it was quite a challenging one.. starting off with adapting to the new place, making new friends, finding the right cliques, studying, partying, taking care of the house yada yada yada yada..

im still here. alive. :)

"if you were a beautiful sound with the echo's all around, then i'd be your harmony and we'd sing along with the crowds"

things in mind

2009-10-09T11:54:00.002+07:00

the past week has been the most depressing yet. i fall and was trying to find my way back up.. and i still am searching for my way back up.. im slowly adapting to the change. soo slowly.

im starting to question whether im regretting the decisions i made in the past, although i tried very hard not to regret anything..because afterall, everything was decided and it was my own stupid decision.

life would be so much easier if i was in elsewhere.. say Jakarta. i know i can get endless love from my family.. which is what i really need at the moment.

im just blabbering right now.. pouring out my heart. will be back when i find the right state of mind. im still c.o.n.f.u.s.e.d

d.r.a.m.a

2009-09-12T22:37:00.001+07:00

when will i ever get away from all the dramas?

life is too short to be playing characters.

aku tau kok

2009-08-21T10:40:00.002+07:00

aku tau this would happen again. untuk kesekian kalinya... entah kenapa, aku udah ngerasain ini bakal terjadi lagi.. aku sabar nunggu nantinya..kl emang kita punya masa depan sama-sama..

Bulan Ramadhan ini aku pengen bener2 membersihkan hati..bener2 pengen menjadi lebih baik lagi..lebih bersih, suci, sabar...

selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa :)

from ADL with (no) love

2009-08-10T13:36:00.002+07:00

i have not been able to write down things i have been keeping in my head for so long. the past month was a fast roller coaster ride.. i almost forgot to fasten my belt and hold on tight. i screamed as loud inside my head, and at the same time i tried to catch a breath as the ride finishes.

where did July go? and we're already approaching the second week of august. i wish i could withdraw time as easy as i withdraw money from the atm at Rundle mall.

and yep you all guessed it. i tend to write on my blog, when im highly procastinating on assingments. semester 5 is entering its 3rd week already..

university-aside.

i have met a lot of people in the past couple of weeks.. but i always wanted to be with the people who are not here with me. i just couldn't stop imagining..how different would it be if i just stay in one place for at least 4 years.. i love travelling, but dislikes moving to a new place.

love-life aside. help me cope back with university life. perhaps, the only roller coaster i want to ride on now..

superwoman

2009-06-24T21:34:00.002+07:00

ku takkan pernah merasakannya bila kau tak disini

june is coming to its end..couple more days and im more than ready to bid farewell to this bittersweet june 2009. i hope the upcoming months won't give me anymore shit than what i already had..

i have been unstable lately. i cried. i laughed. i smiled. i said goodbye. i broke down. i got up.

agitated. joy. non-stop ramblings.

i have made up my mind. i know what i want now, what i need to do and what i need to leave behind..

"even when i'm a mess, i still put on a vest with an S on my chest
coz i am a superwoman"

officially hating...

2009-06-16T16:37:00.002+07:00

june 2009

problems never seems to go away from me this month, particularly. i had numerous mental breakdown just this month.. it almost send me to depression..but im trying my best to stay on top of things. bener-bener dicoba gw bulan ini..

both internal and external factors come into place.. i dont even know which one i should handle first..to make things worst.. i'm all by myself in this. its my decision too. i keep thinking to myself, maybe im too ungrateful for whatever God has given me.. but i realised that God will not make us suffer more than our capacity. i just need to invest in patience. i need it. really need it.

at the same time.. i want june to be over already.

i need...

2009-06-12T22:22:00.002+07:00

to party. really bad.

oh hell yes... i'm already planning a next outing. i haven't gone dancing in a club in so loong.. i wanna throw away mood2 jelek..pikiran2 aneh dan celebrate my freedom next week.

MOS anyone? ;)

a trip to my kampung

2009-06-08T19:22:00.002+07:00

aku sedang in lebay mode. salah satu tugas aku buat Creative Writing class is to write a feature story on anything.

so i decided to write a piece on travel destination on Padang, West Sumatra. agak geli baca my own writing piece, karena most feature stories yang pernah aku baca dari travel magazines ceritanya sangat lebay.

dan itu juga termasuk tulisan ku tentang kampungku, Padang. i wrote and read it over and over again.. and sungguh sangat lebay ternyata. yaa intinya .. masa makan nasi padang aja smp heboh banget cerita tentang tukang masaknya..

dan tujuan dari entry ini juga sangat lebay ya.

MUAK. SUNTUK.BASIII

2009-06-06T20:02:00.003+07:00

this fukin environment isn't helping me coping with university life.

i'm building up so much hate for this particular place. GAWD.

arrrggghhhhhh...

My dad and President Obama

2009-06-06T10:43:00.002+07:00

my dad is not the President of United States of America.. he's not the president of my own country as well.. but there is one similar thing that my dad and President Obama share in common.

the great love for their children..
in the midst of writing up my journalism essay, i was cleaning up my inbox and i found an email from my dad from months back and i feel like sharing it here because my dad is a devoted family man and the President in our family :)

My lovely daughters Fati & Fida,

Please find a very touchy and lovely letter from Obama to his
daughters. Just to let you know that what Obama wrote in this letter
was exactly representing what I feel and your mom wish for both of
you. We love you my daughters, we always want to have and provides
all the best for you my kids for your well being and happiness. Please
always read over and over your diary that we wrote since you were
born. You have to feel very lucky, since not many parent have that
idea to capture all moment of your life from your the day you were born until you
reached 17 years old. You can sense our feeling and love in that
diary.

So this Obama's letter was really describing what the parents want and
feel about their lovely kids. Happy New Year 2009.

Love - Dad

and then my dad attached President Obama's letter for his children in the email. here it is..

I Want for You — and Every Child in America

By President-elect Barack Obama

Publication Date: 01/14/2009

Next Tuesday, Barack Obama will be sworn in as our 44th President. On
this historic occasion, PARADE asked the President-elect, who is also
a devoted family man, to get personal and tell us what he wants for
his children. Here, he shares his letter to them.

Dear Malia and Sasha,

I know that you've both had a lot of fun these last two years on the
campaign trail, going to picnics and parades and state fairs, eating
all sorts of junk food your mother and I probably shouldn't have let
you have. But I also know that it hasn't always been easy for you and
Mom, and that as excited as you both are about that new puppy, it
doesn't make up for all the time we've been apart. I know how much
I've missed these past two years, and today I want to tell you a
little more about why I decided to take our family on this journey.

When I was a young man, I thought life was all about me-about how I'd
make my way in the world, become successful, and get the things I
want. But then the two of you came into my world with all your
curiosity and mischief and those smiles that never fail to fill my
heart and light up my day. And suddenly, all my big plans for myself
didn't seem so important anymore. I soon found that the greatest joy
in my life was the joy I saw in yours. And I realized that my own life
wouldn't count for much unless I was able to ensure that you had every
opportunity for happiness and fulfillment in yours. In the end, girls,
that's why I ran for President: because of what I want for you and for
every child in this nation.

I want all our children to go to schools worthy of their
potential-schools that challenge them, inspire them, and instill in
them a sense of wonder about the world around them. I want them to
have the chance to go to college-even if their parents aren't rich.
And I want them to get good jobs: jobs that pay well and give them
benefits like health care, jobs that let them spend time with their
own kids and retire with dignity.

I want us to push the boundaries of discovery so that you'll live to
see new technologies and inventions that improve our lives and make
our planet cleaner and safer. And I want us to push our own human
boundaries to reach beyond the divides of race and region, gender and
religion that keep us from seeing the best in each other.

Sometimes we have to send our young men and women into war and other
dangerous situations to protect our country-but when we do, I want to
make sure that it is only for a very good reason, that we try our best
to settle our differences with others peacefully, and that we do
everything possible to keep our servicemen and women safe. And I want
every child to understand that the blessings these brave Americans
fight for are not free-that with the great privilege of being a
citizen of this nation comes great responsibility.

That was the lesson your grandmother tried to teach me when I was your
age, reading me the opening lines of the Declaration of Independence
and telling me about the men and women who marched for equality
because they believed those words put to paper two centuries ago
should mean something.

She helped me understand that America is great not because it is
perfect but because it can always be made better-and that the
unfinished work of perfecting our union falls to each of us. It's a
charge we pass on to our children, coming closer with each new
generation to what we know America should be.

I hope both of you will take up that work, righting the wrongs that
you see and working to give others the chances you've had. Not just
because you have an obligation to give something back to this country
that has given our family so much-although you do have that
obligation. But because you have an obligation to yourself. Because it
is only when you hitch your wagon to something larger than yourself
that you will realize your true potential.

These are the things I want for you-to grow up in a world with no
limits on your dreams and no achievements beyond your reach, and to
grow into compassionate, committed women who will help build that
world. And I want every child to have the same chances to learn and
dream and grow and thrive that you girls have. That's why I've taken
our family on this great adventure.

I am so proud of both of you. I love you more than you can ever know.
And I am grateful every day for your patience, poise, grace, and humor
as we prepare to start our new life together in the White House.

Love, Dad

my dad always email me things that he reads, what interests him and all... since i don't have the time to see him face-to-face, our way of conversing "deeply" is through emails..

i love you daddy and mommy.. thanks for everything you have given me, fida and zaki..

[ wedding.pregnancy.baby. ]

2009-06-05T19:58:00.002+07:00

just about the three things that surprises me in the past months..

when i hear the word "wedding" i always thought of two-adults getting married, live happily ever after..yeah the so-called fairytale and its own happy endings. I, like many other girls, always fantasize what and how my perfect wedding would be..

one thing that i didn't realise, was that i was actually entering this "adult" life.. and no, im not tying the knot soon, but one of my elementary friend is. i was shocked when i first heard about it.. i wasn't close to her but the news still surprised me.. if everything goes well, she's getting married by end of this year... and i told her how nice it is to get married at such young age...not to mention, she's only couple months younger than me.. i hope she has the fairytale marriage life that most girls have..

second of all.. another friend of mine back in middle school-high school...is expecting her first baby with her boyfriend this fall. again, i was shocked.. seeing how happy she is with her growing belly..i can't help but be happy as well.. haha

and theeeeeen... this is the most shocking of the shocking there is. a close friend of mine (we were actually best friend in middle school, but this long-distance thing grew us apart) has a baby boy!! and apparently he's already one year plus... and i cannot imagine how she is dealing with being a baby mama and all.. she was too funny to be true... and i miss her so much. i miss you anne!

the purpose of this entry is to highlight the fact that who knows maybe in the near future i'll be in the phase where my friends are..

but i'd definitely want to get married first before the other two...

HAHAHA :')

another daily ramblings

2009-06-04T19:37:00.005+07:00

i was brought up to appreciate all the things given to me... even the smallest thing. but i can't help the feeling of wanting this& that, being there, need more of... i envy my sister for finishing up this semester. hell i think she went through a lot this year.. adjusting to a whole new life, moving to two houses in a year, and finishing up with her high school. she will graduate next week and i'm ecstatic. hahah i dont know why but i simply am. daddy's girls are out of school and there's only my brother left. he still got quite some time..

anyways, the point is, i only have 2 more weeks left. 13 days from today to be exact.. within that 13 days i will be writing up and handing in 3 last essays which weighs about 40 % each. i really want to do well, but this semester is crap whatsoever. and i want to score at least a Distinction for my bussiness exam. (yeah i do aim high). so i just need to tape my ass to the seat and force open my eyes to stare at notes and let the brain work its magic of understanding key terms and save them all into my long term memory. who knows i migth open a small bussiness as well. besides the point, i want to be home :'( home where my family is at.. it's gn be a hard time for me if i dont get to see them before adelaide.. i'm hoping that i could fly back soon enough so i get to spend time with my loves back home...and getting my beautification done. :)

my life has been full of surprises nowadays.. one thing down, another thing came up..and its just simultenously ocurring. i wanted to break down in tears a while ago.. coz i just have too many things in my head. nothing is reaching close to 50% in terms of progressing. and when im worried, i cant think properly and rush things. ugh i hate it i hate it.

right now i should be doing my research for journalism paper and prepare for tomorrow's presentation. but blogging has become my distraction.

i want to go back to times when i could careless about the world.

but complaining about things will not bring me anywhere.. i should be more grateful for whatever i have and who i am today.

my new love.

2009-06-03T15:46:00.004+07:00

stuart danker

he's my hairstylist.. and today, he did what i must say, a good job in fixing my hair. :) before this, i only go to him for wash and blow coz i never had the guts to cut my hair here since i only trust the hairstylist in jakarta...tetapi, since i'm really tired of my "corpsed" hair, i decided to give it a try and was quite happy..

and he's the only person who compliments my hair the most. everytime i see him, i'll be in a seat for half an hour and i got ten thousand compliments already. haha i swear, one day if i make big money, i'm gn hire him to be my own personal hairstylist :)

my current state of mind

2009-06-02T20:20:00.003+07:00

i have been mentally exhausted for the past couple of days and im not quite sure how to unfold the things in my mind into words right now. been getting constant headache almost every night now.. :s i hope that it do nothing to my health system..coz im supposed to be getting my medical check-up soon.. sigh

i found myself running out of place; here and there; left and right. i think its the pure effect of "semester nearly ends". indeed my friends.. the end of semester 4 is approaching and is just around the corner. within a month, i will be in a new place. a new place i would call my new home, my sanctuary. insya Allah.

my parents are set to come next week for my sister's graduation..and they're gonna stay for a couple of days and go home again. with my sister.

which means.. two-weeks till the end of june, i will be effin home-alone. the thought of being home alone for a night doesn't scare me. but.. err.. two weeks? im not too sure about that. :s maybe i'll just sleepover at sya's place or get her to my place.. or i dont know. and it doesn't really help that i have my one and only final exam on bussiness towards the end of june. the "its okay, i'll stay home and study for exam" has a slim chance of working this time..

if i were to asked on how well i performed in academics this semester? i'm not too sure what to answer either. i mean..the first- two assingments i did rather good, considering the fact that i still procastinate. and now, i just completely lost the motivation to finish off the last assingments.

1200 words on a feature story
1500 words on "ethical journalim requires conscientius-decision making in context"
2000 words on news analysis

all these are to be submitted by 17th of june. and my work in progress at the moment.. is 5% on each. nothing to be proud of i know..

after 17th of june...i'm allocating 11 days to study for the business exam. 11 topics to be examined, so 1 topic / day should be good enough. but this is if procastination doesn't fall into place.

now you get the picture of why im mentally exhausted?

on a side note...

Cuando el amor es magico, se llama destino.. :)

the old emo -self

2009-05-31T20:07:00.002+07:00

so turn up the corner of your lips, part them and feel my finger tips.

uh oh?

2009-05-30T18:37:00.004+07:00

muahahahaha i taught my brother well. :p

dear diary

2009-05-30T09:49:00.003+07:00

i know it hurts.

but it will hurt even more if i dont make my decision now. with all the things we have ahead of us, i just want you to know that you were once part of me who have shaped me into the person i am today. and i dont regret one thing. it was too close to perfection. but kesempurnaan bukan milik kita krn God jauh lebih sempurna.. this might be the answer to my prayers.

our memories can't be replaced with anything and i thank you for that.

i will miss you motogp boy :'(

future baby look-a-like

2009-05-29T14:22:00.002+07:00

she's too adorable.. and i want one just like her. haha

random thought

2009-05-29T13:58:00.002+07:00

"this just can't be summer love, you'll see..."

said my long lost ex-boyfriend, Mr.Justin Timberlake.

i miss dancing my heart out.

2009-05-28T20:53:00.003+07:00

"yes, when i dance, i'm a free woman, or, rather a free spirit who can travel through the universe, contemplate the present, divine the future, and be transformed into pure energy. and that gives me enormous pleasure, a joy that always goes far beyond everything i've experienced or will experience in my lifetime" --- Athena , from The Witch of Portobello by Paulo Coelho.

that's not the best of my dance pictures. i have plenty but its all on the p.c in jakarta. i miss being on stage terribly. dancing my heart out, expressing my emotions,. it was my cure to happiness. my dance teacher named each of us in the group with words that best describes us. according to her, i just happened to be the "heart" of the dance that we performed for the whole iasas schools. and she has her reasons why she named me the "heart" but i'll simply keep that to myself. although its open for any interpretation :)

i miss miss miss dancing so much. and it does gives me an enormous pleasure.

say what?!

2009-05-28T16:58:00.005+07:00

in the upcoming 'New Moon' movies, robert pattinson is gonna be shirtless?!! anjriiit...

lucky whore

ahhh.... not only that, stories in tabloids mention how there are more "hunks" in this sequel..
ga mau baca bukunya...karena pasti movies selalu dissapointing in comparison to the book.. so i'll just wait for it to come out end of this year...

rawr. hotness.

my new li'l love

2009-05-27T18:06:00.002+07:00

i'm building lil love-crush on these british boys. yesterday my love was for shaheen i-forgot-his-last-name.

but today... here's my eleven years old baby... aiden davis aahhh another 'goosebumps' performance haha i might be bias coz i have the passion for dancing as well.. so this is what my future son might look like... :p

kecil2 kok ganteng banget sih. talented pula..

2 years ago

2009-05-26T18:54:00.009+07:00

exactly two years ago, at this day, i graduated from high school.. i couldn't wait for that moment to happen, the moment i shook the principal's hand whilst he handed over my diploma. i miss high school but i don't wanna go back.. hell no.. i had an amazing senior year but i think i'll have better years later in life :)

my adik-adik kelas di Jis hari ini baru graduation juga... time really passes by in a blink of an eye. imagine where i will be two years from now... hmmm..

i love my class of 2007

and congrats to class of 2009!

2009-05-25T21:56:00.001+07:00

there are some things in my head that i can't express.. verbally,visually, emotionally.

time is running out

2009-05-25T20:33:00.003+07:00

tick tock tick tock

can you hear the clock is ticking?

grrr... its only monday and i'm already exhausted. i need more hours in the day, so i can accomplish many things.. or maybe there are enough hours in the day.. but i just can't use each and every hour of it effectively.

started off my monday morning with a buyer&consumer behaviour test. i know im not gonna score a distinction like my 2 previous tests, let alone a high distinction. :s im hopeless.. tadi testnya susah banget..and i really did gave it my all.

after that, i went to finish up my "urusan transfer" at idp. hahahah waiiit... let me re-phrase that. after that, i went to start my "urusan transfer" at idp... and their response is "we'll give you a call today, if not tomorrow to confirm your insurance payment" --> you want me to wait another day? *sigh* so i thought ok.. sabar aja.. yang lain aja masih pada tenang2, kenapa gw heboh sendiri sih? well that's just me...

"so, you need to prepare $$$ for this this that this that this"

then daddy called and i said "dad, you need to put $$$$ into my account for this that this that this that"

dad said "okay.."

shit. i feel really bad asking my dad to pay for pretty much everything. :s but i'll pay him all back one day. one day i will :)

chica bella

2009-05-24T17:28:00.002+07:00

oh, this is definitely a must-watch. found it on youtube a while ago, but i keep forgetting to post it up.. she never fail to make me laugh. if you don't believe it, watch it for yourself :)

little arianna

this is reality

2009-05-24T14:57:00.005+07:00

this is a picture of Kris Allen and his wife;

the picture above is heart-melting to me. when i watch the real thing on tv, i had tears in my eyes.. i thought it was really sweet that his wife went up on stage, they hugged, and he cried! when he was announced as the winner, he was shocked and had no expression whatsoever, and i finally saw the sensitive side of him...after he sings the finale song, he reunited with his wife and the world watches as they share their love.

he's not a robot after all...he cried..he actually had feelings.. i was pissed that they didn't show much of her..she was pretty much on the background esp.after Simon Cowell made nasty comment early in the season. kris is 23 and is already married. it's heartbreaking for many girls but im hoping that his fame won't destroy his relationship with his wife :)

reality brought tears to my eyes. watching that moment when they hug, was indeed really sweet. because the emotions were real and the people are not told to do so. i don't cry watching romantic/ sad-happy ending movies because i know, the chemistry in the movies are not real. characters in movies are made up. they are staged. they have been directed to fall in love.

aku pengen dipeluk sama Kris jugaaa :'(

oprah's big give

2009-05-23T19:54:00.002+07:00

a weird show.

when i first saw the commercial on tv, i thought 'oh, here's another interesting show about Oprah Winfrey, i must watch it'.. then i started watching it.. and thinks that its incredibly stupid. for those who don't know about the show, its a 'reality show' about people who donates/helps the society...but being judge by 3 judges (similar to american idol). so people are competing to give ''big''. whoever gives "big" to the society will win..whoever didn't plan the "giving" things well, will be eliminated. bottom line is... everyone is helping the society/those who are really in need..

my question is : is it necessary to measure how much money or effort you give to society? kalo niat menyumbang, ya nyumbang aja.. ga usah ikutan kompetisi2 ga jelas...

just reminded of something...

2009-05-21T19:01:00.002+07:00

instead of saving up money for my next retail therapy, i should start saving up for future meaningful purposes. (i.e plane tickets + accommodation + spending $ for melbourne and gold coast trip :p )

im thinking of something : i have more than 2 shirts.. so what is the purpose of buying more? i can always wear one, wear the 2nd one while the first one is being washed and so on.

but i don't like to be seen as wearing the same thing thrice :s

the unexpected surprise

2009-05-20T10:16:00.002+07:00

as i was waiting for The Hills to download yesterday, i opened my mailbox. little did i know, i received the one thing i've been waiting since march. my unisa offer letter. so much for stressing out on monday.. sigh

so now i gotta pay the insurance fee, get my COE, process my visa and i'm ready to take off :)

im writing a bussiness paper..just a bit more on my part of the essay and its all to the other members to finish it. and then...i'm going to treat myself.

i have been eye-ing couple of things that i want to get + i've been saving up money = a retail therapy

xox

dreaming a dream job

2009-05-18T20:39:00.000+07:00

"Unilever, of Anglo Dutch origins, is one of the largest consumer goods businesses in the world, operating in over 90 countries. Over a quarter of a million employees globally create $11 billion pounds profit."

over the past couple of days, i have been dreaming about my future job.. concern that i only have one more year to complete my bachelor degree in communication and media management, i have done an early thinking. for those who don't know me very well, i like to plan things ahead of time. waaaaay ahead of time.. although some might not work according to my plans, but at least i know i have prepared. and so i come to the point where i've been dreaming about working for Unilever once i graduate next year, Insya Allah.

Last December 2008, i went for an internship-interview at Unilever Jakarta. but they 'rejected' me because they wanted me to intern for 3-months, and by that time, i only had around 1.5 month left in Jakarta. so Mba Meila said maybe I could try again next time. and i'm telling myself from now on that i NEED to get that internship the next time i have a 3-months break! the office environment when i went for my internship was really cozy. the people were really laid-back and the activities that they do (according to Mba Meila) sounded really fun to me. Hopefully, everything goes well for me in the years ahead..and who knows, maybe i could be working at Unilever..

:) hmmm...

xox

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2009-05-17T17:04:00.000+07:00

happy 21st birthday syaza!!

this picture is taken from her bday dinner last year...

on a side note, my stomach is going ga-ga now.. i can already sense the 'masuk angin' coz i have gone through this "illness" numerous of times.. and everytime i got it, i'd start thinking that i'd rather have cough or fever than masuk angin.. not like i like to be sick with cough or fever, but i definetly dislike going back and forth to the bathroom, having constant stomach growls, and the feeling of wanting to burp non-stop. gross yet i have to deal with it.. beginilah nasib anak kost, the food that i eat revolves around instant noodles, fast food, wholemeal bread, or sometimes i skipped a meal coz i dont feel like cooking nor do i feel like going out to grab a bite. i'm trying to enjoy university life as much, because people said "uni is the best time of your life!". when i heard this, it brings me back to the memories of high school...and people used to say to me "enjoy high school, its the best time of your life". and when i attend my parent's friends' son/daughther's weddings, they will say "marriage is the best time of your life". hahaha ok so i dont know why i start rambling about this.. i guess its the further extension of procastinating on buyer&consumer behaviour essay.

i have been making notes here and there on my so called 'academic' planner... but not one of them is posted on my wall..hahhaa so i'm gonna make another one of 'academic planner' and actually post it up on my wall.. :p

other than that, i have been missing my family too much.

pampered

2009-05-16T19:27:00.001+07:00

i used to have my own idea of pampering myself.. that is..going to the salon, getting a creambath, full body massage and scrub and facial... but then i came up with another definition of pampering. my mom, little brother , my little cousins and aunt +uncle came to visit last week.. and i've never been happier for the last 2.5 months.. to be able to spend time with them relax-ed me. coincidentally, i'm on my mid-term break, so it was just a perfect holiday for me at least. so we spent the exact one week mall-hopping, eating and paid a super short trip to singapore. my God, i needed thaaat and i amazed myself for finishing up my media forum right before we went to singapore. hence, i truly enjoyed my short holiday. and that is how i come up with another definition of 'pampering' ..spending good quality time with my lovely family.

i love you all to death

reality relationship

2009-05-09T16:12:00.000+07:00

to me, working out a healthy relationship is quite a challenge. it is putting together two different minds and trying it to make it one. whilst the girl think she didn't do anything wrong, the guy thinks differently. and vice versa.

it almost hit me rock bottom, but once again i figured it out using my logic instead of purely emotion..

i'm almost there :)

2009-05-08T08:56:00.000+07:00

alrightey.. so as i was blogwalking, i came across diana rikasari, and she just got a lovely gift from whooga. and then i decided to go to the website and browsed around... hmm.. i think i want a pair of ugg boots too! although i have one back in the days when i was living in virginia.. but another pair won't hurt :) ;) hihi

a new addition to the group

2009-05-06T13:13:00.000+07:00

this week's purchase :

a blue-back statement necklace

confuse? confused? confusing? eh?

2009-05-05T20:03:00.001+07:00

i am now a communication student who is writing a critique on finance with no finance background.

eh?

eww..

2009-05-04T17:58:00.000+07:00

i just realised.. almost all my posts are about assignments.

no more of this gheyass on the upcoming ones..

take me to paradise

2009-05-04T13:52:00.000+07:00

in the midst of many assignments, my brain is definitely on vacation..

i always love looking back at memories. esp my 2007 Bali memories. more precisely, Tanah Lot... i remember getting up so early that day to go there and it paid off really well...

i want to be at the exact same place, again.

my lovely family

2009-05-02T19:26:00.000+07:00

it's so painful to be away from them, i tried not to think of it too often coz it'll only give me a major homesick.. but i cannot help to see the picture above.. my little cousins are too adorable.. and i miss them soo muchhh :'(

when you're in love, you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams..

2009-05-01T10:58:00.000+07:00

today is our 1.5 years anniversary... and this is my longest by far :') so i would like to dedicate this post to my beloved boyfriend who has been there for me days and nights all these times... who puts up with me with his never- ending patient.. who makes me laugh and yada yada yada yada.. its too much to be written here.. but all in all, he's been the best best-friend and boyfriend i could ever ask for. i love you with all my heart and i promise i won't do a thing to hurt you..

i'm definetly looking forward for this weekend to rest and restore some energy coz i dont really have a midterm break :'( my bussiness elective class starts again on monday and this bullshit media forum also starts on monday all the way till the 15th of may. .

way to start my May.. *sigh*

and i need to get through another 4 weeks of classes and i will be done with 4th semester!

Quiero..

2009-04-30T09:34:00.000+07:00

him

i'm getting used to this long-distance relationship thing. but sometimes, i just can't help myself.. i miss him too much.

tomorrow is our 1.5 years anniversary. another anniversary apart from each other.. on the other hand, this is supposedly my mid-term semester break, but my 'things-to-do' for this break consists of "assignments" , mostly.

i was thinking of begging my parents to buy me a return ticket for this short break, but then i realised, there really is NO point of going back home if i'll just end up working on assignments instead of getting pampered at salon and all. so i made a wise decision to stay and umm work on assingments ? oh dear.

<3>

semester break

2008-11-10T12:43:00.000+07:00

although it's not official yet, but i'm kinda already on my 3 months semester break :) long ass break.. where my brain will not function for a while..and all i can think of is just to have fun.. so i turned in my research paper already.. then i just have to photocopy my critiques, then copy-paste html codes and turn it into a beautiful website. it doesn't look too hectic anymore at least. yay for me..

2 days ago i started working at Tony Roma's as a hostess... mixed feelings because some staff were really friendly but then there are also some who asks for the kick in the ass and a nice punch on the face.. And I was super busy especially because it was the weekend. most people were on waiting lists and i kinda had to 'entertain' them.. gahh... for the experience and work resume...why not?

in less than a month, i will head back home. finally its jakarta again... seeing the family again and properly partying with my friends again.. ahh how i miss the partying scene there.. and pretty much the people who never fail to make me laugh and smile :)

besides that, i have a bunch of movies that i'm planning to watch this break... the lists goes as follow :

Quantum of Solace [watching it today...]
Madagascar 2
Twilight
Transporter 3 maybe...
Body of Lies
Wild Child
Beverly Hills Chihuahua
Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging
YES Man
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

woot woot... i can't wait

research paper

2008-11-05T19:53:00.000+07:00

i'm writing yet another paper about journalism

and officially sick of it :[

3 done.
1 to go :]

let's paint the white house black, baby..

2008-11-05T19:14:00.001+07:00

november 4th, 2008

Another history was created in the land of United States of America. Barack Obama, of Democratic Party, has been elected to be the 44th President of United States of America and to be the First African-American President of the country.

Honestly, I have never been this enthusiastic about presidential election. Nor do i have interests in politics. Let alone, I don't know why I'm enchanted to Barack Obama. I've never really understood his political vissions and missions, but for some reason, there's something about Obama that gets me excited about the election.

I was really moved when i watched his first victory speech. I read an article or rather a comment from someone on the internet, that Obama's win is Martin Luther King's dream comes true. People of all colors should be united. To me, Obama is beyond charming. I have good feelings for USA and the rest of the world now that Obama is the president-elect. I wish him all the good luck in re-shaping America and for all the social progresses.

Congrats for Barack, Michelle, Sasha and Malia Obama. God Bless!

"It’s the answer spoken by young and old, rich and poor, Democrat and Republican, black, white, Hispanic, Asian, Native American, gay, straight, disabled and not disabled. Americans who sent a message to the world that we have never been just a collection of individuals or a collection of red states and blue states. We are, and always will be, the United States of America." - Barack Obama, 2008